I want the pain & fatigue to just stop. I want my old normal back. Now!
My body is tired every day.
I’m only 31.
How can it be that I feel so old and worn out at such an early age?
How is it I’ve been through 6 surgeries in 12.5 years?
is that why my body hurts?
Or is it “normal” to feel this way and I’m just a wuss?
People keep asking me how I am and they hope I’m 100% again. I’m not. Maybe I never will be. Maybe I will be when I’m completely off the meds? I can certainly hope, can’t I?
I just dropped my dose again today. Each time I do, it just takes my breathe away. Adjusting to the new dose just makes me feel like I’m being slammed into a wall. Over and over.
I have really good days where I feel like I’m on top of the world, but the next day i fall flat on my face and can barely get up, but I do. I have 3 boys that need me for this and for that.
I’m forever grateful I have a loving, caring, supportive husband. Otherwise? I’m not sure I’d be able to survive this any longer. I don’t know how much more my body could take, but no matter how hard his day was, no matter how exhausted he is, my husband? He always steps in and takes over when I need him to. He does it with little to no complaint.
I love him for that. I can never repay him for everything, but I know I don’t have to. I know he doesn’t expect me to. That makes it all worth while.
Pain or no pain.
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