Lisa

I was only five when she died but I remember Lisa very vividly.

I remember details of of her funeral that I wish I could forget.

Lisa is in the white coat. 11 months before she died.

She died of an aneurysm 29 years ago today (11/11).

She was only 18. She was a newlywed.

Mom, 2 of my other sisters and 5 year old me with Lisa just a month before she died. I *think* this was the last time I saw her alive.

When I turned 19 i felt so so sad. I was older than my big sister.

Kenny Chesnee has a song called “Who You’d be Today”.

I think of her every time I hear it. Especially when he says I wonder what you would’ve named your babies.

She would have made beautuful babies.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin’ in the rain.
I still can’t believe you’re gone.

It ain’t fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I’ve been through,
Just knowin’ no-one could take your place.
An’ sometimes I wonder,
Who’d you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky’s so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An’ I know it might sound crazy.

It ain’t fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I’ve been through,
Just knowin’ no-one could take your place.
An’ sometimes I wonder,
Who you’d be today?

Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.

[Instrumental Break]

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I’ll see you again some day.

Some day, some day, some day.

–Kenny Chesney